Im Getting Ready

So I have an AWBT tournament this weekend in Tucson,AZ at a pool hall called Pockets.Last time I ventured into this pool hall i did very poorly. It was about a year ago when I first stepped foot into that little hole in the wall. To get ready for this tournament this weekend I have been going to Kolby's and practicing my 100 times and playing in the Tuesday night tournament.To be honest i don't feel very prepared for this tournament. I could have spent a lot more time in the pool hall practicing but I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately. The other night while I was playing in the Tuesday night tournament I caught myself thinking about my pool friend situation. I thought about how it seems like it is so hard to make friends in this environment. I have to see everyone as my competition how in the world do you make a competitor a friend. I have always been good with keeping good friendships with guys but girls on the other hand is another story. I feel like I have to keep a poker face on at all times so no one can see my emotions but I think that drives people away. Ive been told that I'm intimidating. ME INTIMIDATING! If people would only get to know me.I also get people that say things about me that are untrue and pretty hurtful. I don't understand why people have to be so ignorant.
So I'm trying to figure out what I do to make myself some pool partners. I have always dreamed of going on the road with a couple of people and doing the ROAD POOL TRIP. I just need people that will take the time to get to know me. So anyways the reason I went off on the friend thing is because in July I had an AWBT tournament where some of the women there were very rude to me. I have never in my two years of pool witnessed people with such low class. I would never say names but to kinda sum it up all the women had one thing in common lol. That's all I will say. I'm just hoping that this same occurrence wont happen again this weekend. Just a quick note to anyone who wants to act like an unclassy lady at these events- some women come here to accomplish something for themselves and just because these tournaments are meet and greets to some of you its not to me and all the others that really want our pool careers to go some where thank you! Now that's off my back so this weekend I have to play well. I'm in 3rd place on the points scale and I got an e-mail about the regional tour championships that said 1st and 2CD place from each tour will be seated. If I grind out the next two tournaments Ill have a shot at 1st. I just need to focus and play my game and that's whats going to take me to the top. I have the ability to beat these women but I don't push myself hard enough.
Yesterday I took a day off and went to the recording studio to listen to my first song 'Untrue'. It was so exciting to hear the song that I created and now finished.We started to work on the next song on the album. Its a fun dance song with alot of energy! I'm not to sure what I'm going to name it but the lyrics have been flying threw my head all day. Music really takes my mind some where and it really helps me express how I'm feeling. Whats great about music is that if you can create a song from you heart it can really take some one on the journey that you are describing. When I'm in the studio its as if nothing else in the world exist. There is no pool tournaments no car payments no problems. I think Ive said it before and ill say it again EVERYONE NEEDS A RELEASE! You have to get away every once in a while and just be yourself for a day. I love playing pool more than any other hobby out there but just like in relationships you have to have a break every once in a while to get back to the real world. I really am hoping the best for this new singing hobby that i have dug up from the past. I hope it will open my eyes up for new opportunity and new adventures. You only live once!